is this one of those "lows"? i don't know. all i know is, i've tried what i believe to be "summoning some strength" but it never does materialise. am i barely hanging on? when my mind goes kind of blank and i forget - really forget - just what i am doing or the reasons for doing so, a part of me begins to give up. i surrender (not exactly to god) and i must admit (not because i'm humble) that i've overestimated myself.
i simply don't have what it takes to juggle all i'm juggling. i'm not delicate enough for this balancing act. i'm not capable enough to organise all those clashing thoughts. i'm not even stable enough to deal with these issues as what they are - separate issues.
i have to give something up. before i bloody crash and burn.
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hey take a deep breath...
you don't have to shoulder everything by yourself, really...
that's what friends are for, the fact that you have start to voice it out, means you are willing to let people reach out to you aye...
its juzt another bad day, you will tide thru it, aye...
von
*hugs* are u alright greg? keeping you in my prayers.. yea.. don't take on the whole world and negate yourself in the process. it can be destructive. the last thing we want is for you to break down!!! let us know how we can be of any help ok? -hugs-
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