status quo vs progress

there are always two ways to deal with a tiring job: accepting it as part of your life, learning how to get used to it, and taking it on as a challenging responsibility; or rejecting it altogether, finding out how to get out of this prison, and claiming your own freedom from oppression. the first resembles confucian philosophy a lot - adapting to the situation and conforming to order and rules. the second is revolutionary, left-wing, and often the inspiration for such things as terrorism.

yet we always go thru both strategies when faced with life. every responsibility we get can be interpreted as a form of exploitation (regardless of its relevance to capitalism, really), such that even serving in church becomes committing yourself to slaving for the slackers in church. once the motion has been started, you start gaining a form of 'class consciousness', separating yourself from those who are different from you and classing them as oppressors of your reality. this 'revolutionary' mindset would start to get you interested in rebellion and the eventual inversion of the prevalent order itself. of course, many do not go all the way to this stage, but many do dream of changing the world.

however, why can't we simply accept that reality is harsh and demanding? that our destiny is little more than to be mindless robots perpetuating an exploitative society? why can't we be willing and obedient slaves, selfless bearers of their own crosses, rushing to die once given the order? is it pride that holds us back? is it a sense of greater purpose? but when we look at christ who gave up his life for the worthless millions who craved his death... do we see that order as having a meaning? christ obviously believed that his death was not for the worthless, or that these worthless ppl will no longer be worthless in his death. will this ever apply for us? when we give of all that we have to supplicate this oppressive reality, are we actually giving it worth or meaning? will this passive gentleness be sufficient to impress society with our hopes and dreams?

why should i work with the status quo? why should i attempt to kickstart progressivism? existentialism continues to plague my belaboured mind. this third way of tackling life's challenges which i hardly approve of has unfortunately become my favourite path. the way of escapism and delaying response. debating in my head won't solve things or move me forward... but i can't snap out of it...