the busy life

it's not very easy being an nus student - this is one statement i'd dare say everyone would agree with. but that's where the similarities end... how difficult is it exactly? when we bitch about the endless cycle of deadlines and mugging, how much of it is really demanding work?

for me, i feel like i've been endlessly deceiving myself. i havn't been working very hard, at least not the way i imagine. a normal hardworking person, without going nuts, probably spends about 2 hours a day looking at his work, revising today's new stuff and preparing for tomorrow. now, is that very hard? 2 hours probably, at most, means sacrificing some tv, some msn, some slacking time; it may even not require any such sacrifice. in other words, even in my own terms, being hardworking is actually quite easy.

however, i'd immediately defend my position: 2 hours is definitely not enough for 5 modules! but how would i know until i've at least tried for an hour? it's not like i can't give up some aimless time-wasting. but i need the rest! spending a day out is extremely draining, you know. singapore's weather sucks. sure... isn't half an hour's rest enough? 'rest' becomes a form of self-indulgence! am i not simply addicted to tv, msn, slacking in general?

indeed... the busy life is often nothing more than an excuse... i figure, even if i consider the extra time i spend on the CCAs, i'd be doing little more than diving into deeper self-delusion. i'm not that busy! i'm just messed up.